Yoga Retreat!!

Finally a destiny revealed, or so it seems!! Liz told me about a retreat in Austin ( livingyoga.com) and I am psyched, we will be taking this in about
a year or so, nine days of living, learning and growing. We put our brains
together ( which UNBELIEVABLY happened sans sake) and we
realized our gifts...me a masseus, Yoga fanatic, meditation practitioner, Liz an Aikido fanatic, Yoga fanatic,meditatiton practioner....why not work towards our own Yoga, Meditation, Aikido and Massage studio. That
was a brainer...right? lol I am completely psyched! We will get our certification as Yoga instructors in Austin and finally do something we
really love. It is really awesome to see your goals and dreams come
into view right before your eyes. I realize that I do have a purpose in
life and it is refreshing to know that.

Off vacation, back to work and starting school

Alright, I am posting a blog once again. I actually keep up my blog ranting on http://myspace.com/cardigandiary but unfortunately they are down with website
maintenance....so here I am. July 4th was great, spent sometime with Liz and
went to see the fireworks show at Grapevine Lake with Liz, Michael( her bro),
my two kids. Got bit twice by fireants though....paying dearly for that one.
I am allergic to those bastards! I was on a two week vacation ( june10th
thru the 24th, my kids are with me for the summer) and am now back to work,
getting back into the swing of things. The sad part is that I actually
MISSED work, strange thing about being orange blooded I guess. I am
missing adult contact, my kids take up most of my time, and rightfully so,
I love them tremendously, but I seriously need adult contact and communication.
I am not so great at playing mommy, I hide it well though ;) My kids are
going back to Ohio this Sunday....I will miss them alot.
I am making a moving transition at the end of July, a little scared...but excited
and feeling like I am making the right decision. I am moving in with Liz and her
mother Sharon. I feel like this is the right thing to do right now in the transition
of my life. I am looking for a peaceful and accepting home. I am now living with my
mom and she is a wonderful person, she has some hang ups about accepting people
that do not share her views and I feel like I am getting suffocated spiritually. I
look forward to beginning this new chapter in my life. The scared part of my feelings on this move is that.....I really do NOT have a home to call my own...you know...my own home. I am living with my mom....living with my best friend. Since the divorce, I stayed in my own apartment briefly, until my mom wanted me to move in with her....to help me in my schooling...she did not want me living on my own, to be honest. It is that motherly thing of keeping the child safe, I guess.....or perhaps playing devil's advocate, it is a control thing, that she is very good at. Seeing that I have new found freedom and not wanting me to mess my life up with the partying. I completely respect the way she would feel.
I started my massage therapy school last night, we are starting with the tech classes, hands on approach and lectures. The instructor is a Reiki Master, she will be teaching us ALOT of different things that have to do with grounding and energy...helkps when you are a massage practioner.....you are helping those heal themselves...by releasing your energy into them thorugh massage. She actually mentioned something very interesting to the class. I have experienced a release during a massage ( release usually happens during deep tissue massage, it can come in the form of crying or laughing). She said your muscles have memories, through past trauma...whether is be mental or physical, deep tissue massage has been known to make people give a release. She said this will happen on a regular basis and to accept it. I think that is awesome. It almost makes me feel enlightened in a way. Like I am contributing to making someone heal themselves. I cannot imagine a profession that could be anymore fullfilling than that. I truly think I have found my place.

Please don't harm the kittens!!

I probably spent thirty minutes straight out laughing at this picture! OMG this is some real real sick funny stuff....LOL

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Road to Enlightenment

This is the road to enlightenment
1. Do not walk behind me, for I may not lead. Do not walk ahead of me, for I may not follow. Do not walk beside me for the path is narrow. In fact just fuck off and leave me alone.
2. The journey of a thousand miles begins with a broken fan belt and a flat tire.
3. The darkest hour is just before dawn. So if you' re going to steal your neighbour' s milk, that' s the time to do it.
4. Sex is like air. It' s not important unless you aren't getting any.
5. Don' t be irreplaceable. If you can' t be replaced, you can' t be promoted.
6. No one is listening until you fart.
7. Always remember you' re unique. Just like everyone else.
8. Never test the depth of the water with both feet.
9. If you think nobody cares whether you' re alive or dead, try missing a couple of mortgage payments.
10. Before you criticize someone, you should walk a mile in their shoes. That way, when you criticize them, you' re a mile away and you have their shoes.
11. If at first you don' t succeed, skydiving is not for you.
12. Give a man a fish and he will eat for a day. Teach him how to fish, and he will sit in a boat and drink beer all day.
13. If you lend someone $20 and never see that person again, it was probably worth it.
14. If you tell the truth, you don' t have to remember anything.
15. Some days you are the bug; some days you are the windscreen.
16. Don' t worry; it only seems kinky the first time.
17. Good judgment comes from bad experience, and a lot of that comes from bad judgment.18. The quickest way to double your money is to fold it in half and put it back in your pocket.19. A closed mouth gathers no foot.
20. Duct tape is like the Force. It has a light side and a dark side, and it holds the universe together.
21. There are two theories to arguing with men. Neither one works.
22. Generally speaking, you aren't learning much when your lips are moving.
23. Experience is something you don' t get until just after you need it.

Michael Jackson Acquitted???

Ok, WTF??? I am a wee bit shocked. Though I figured, because of his celeb status and high paid attorney's, it would probably happen. Ya know, it would be nice to be a big celeb, I could kill, molest children, do drugs....get caught doing drugs a thousand times over, drive while drunk...possibly even killing a child or family in the process and absolutely rule the world all at the same time. Celebs still have it made people!! amazing

The Past 15 years of my Life

I was reading a friends blog and replied to his take on his 15 years of life, I decided to spill out my 15 in return, after all that is what friends are for.....well here it is and enjoy!

Hey, ya wanna hear the past 15 years of my life:)
15 years ago
1. Lost my virginity to some drunk frat guy that raped me
2. Got preggie by the same guy and lost the baby.
3.Went to school to major in Biology, hoping to become a Physical Therapist in Sports Medicine.
4. my parents divorced
5.I met the cocky marine corp a$$hole who would later would become my husband.
6. I became a lover of alcohol.heh

10 years ago
1.I was married.
2.my dad did not come to my wedding ( I am an only child) because he didn't give a shit.
3.moved away to Ohio, BIG MISTAKE, with my husband and experimented with drugs.
4.Almost divorced over my choice in music ( my ex is a redneck and only approves of country), and my choice of friends were not appropriate for my husband.
5. Got preggie with my gorgeous daughter and that "healed" the marriage for a little while.
6. moved back to Texas because I could NOT STAND to be in that crappy state again.
7.We lived with my mom for 18 months and got preggie again ( 9 months after I had my daughter), because my ex does not believe in birth control,
8. Moved into a rent house here locally and my ex started having numerous affiars with the girls he worked with ( unbeknowst to me).
9.Had a beautiful baby boy.

5 Years Ago
1.after a couple of years in a rent house we finally bought our first home. A brand new gorgeous home in NRH.
2.Husband began a serious affair with the girl that he would leave me for.
3.I felt like I was losing my mind because I was a stay at home mom with no friends.
4.I started working part time.
5.I started taking Interior Design classes.
6. My husband spent his time either at work or on the softball field, if I was working, he would take his girlfriend along to babysit my kids at the softball park he was playing at.

3 years ago
1.My husband woke up one day and told me he loved me but was not in love with me anymore.
2.I moved out of our new house and into an apartment with my son, my daughter stayed with her dad because she was in school.
3. my husband asked me to come back to him and that he was wrong and nothing was my fault, I then exclaimed that he had nine months( the end of my lease) for us to get marriage counseling and to start dating each other again every single weekend, just that I was not ready to move back home yet. ( he said that was too long to wait)
4. My husband decided to move back to Ohio to be with his family, children in tow.
5. Learned how to live on my own....on my own
6.Decided to go into Masssage Therapy School, while I am working full time.
7.Dated for a little while and gave up because most of the men I dated were pigs.
8.Moved in with my mom.

1 Year Ago
1. Divorced my husband, went to a wedding that same night, got completely smashed
2. Looking forward to my Massage Therapy school
3.Met my true best friend, whom I will definitely have the rest of my life!!!
4.See my kids for a summer every year
5.Living day to day.

Have no real future plans than to become a massage therapist......

Love Stories Can Really Suck!

ok, my take on the love story movie phenom!! I HATE LOVE STORIES!! They all suck!! ok, I feel better. I saw The Notebook last night. Great little freakin love story, really pissed me off and made me cry! I say we should ban ALL love stories....everyone who writes a love story can die a terrible death!! LOL
This blog was done in fun and anyone reading it who A) is in love and is clouded by their own affections towards each other or B) wrote a love story
who is offended can just "deal!!!"